6 more days!

I'm not sure how i'm feeling, I guess a little bit emotional. I have had severe cramping this past week. Toodles and I went to grafton for the Ulmara races with Kylie and Daniel last weekend and had a ball. It was good to keep my mind of the whole baby thing. I tested early this morning and got a negative, it would be an understatement to say that i'm upset but am still holding onto hope because it still is early (now I have to replace the preg test before Toodles gets home and finds out i've done one without her). I really am praying to god that it has stuck this time. Toodles has been so excited and I don't want to let her down. I have been throwing up a fair bit but that could be put down to bad chinese I ate, I have been tired but then again i'm always tired. I havent had any symptoms to say tha AF is coming so I guess we'll just have to wait and see. This waiting game sure does suck, I just want to know!