Monday, March 30, 2009

A different direction

Toodles and I have been discussing adoption for the past few weeks and it is so hard to be gay and adopt so now we've decided on foster care. We will be getting sent out an application package today so hopefully we can get the ball rolling. We havent changed our plans about the insemination in a few months so that is still all going ahead. Have been so busy will have to come and do a proper update soon :)

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Happy Anniversary Toodles

I can't beleive it's been a whole week since i've posted, however I have been sneakily reading along to all your posts:) Good news...KS is moving out on Saturday, Toodles gave her the push she needed so it looks like smooth sailing from here, now we just have to shake smokie (she has been at our place for half the week!). I'm really excited about tomorrow, (not just about KS moving out) Toodles and I are staying at Conrad Jupiters for our anniversary...today it had been 3yrs since we got together, somehow it seems like forever! We have stayed there about 4 times before with the last time being our first insemination attempt. We are also finally getting our hair done seeing as we havent been back since before the wedding. This really is a good week for me....happy dayz! :)

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

45 Minutes...

Thats how long I have before I can go home..woohoo! I'm really hanging out for this weekend, nothing special is happening..probably spending Saturday at the markets and on Sunday I have no Toodles or kids to hang out with, this week has dragged on too long.
There have been some mixed feelings from people about our government handing out the stimulus payments to eligable Australians but I think it's great and am really excited about it! We have already received close to $3000 for the kids and Toodles being classes as a 'single' parent and in the next coming months we should be recieving a further $2000, so happy :) We will be putting the money towards buying a caravan and our artificial insemination proceedures that will be starting mid August. Thanks Ruddy!
I've just come across some pictures from my 21st...

Toodles copping a caking


Getting attacked with cake from my wifey


My awesome beer hat my best mate Snowy bought me, she topped it up with red vodka all night!

Cake cutting

Toodles taking over cake cutting duties

Smokie and I chillin in the pool

Monday, March 9, 2009

Thats it!

Well our relationship we have with our donor is over. There have been more problems with KS and she likes to manipulate us and everyone around her....this time it's DD. She has gone back to sleeping with him while sleeping around with everyone else and not telling him about it, i might catch something...it's not worth it. Toodles and I have decided to knuckle down and save and go the clinic option sometime around august, i'm ok about it now that we have a plan. I think i'm so use to the dissapointment every month that now I really just don't know how I feel. I know Toodles is really feeling it, she wants this as much as I do but I really don't know how to deal with her when I can't even figure myself out...I think i'm getting to the stage where i'm just over it. I really am happy the way our life is going right now and if we are unable to have a bub this year I think I would be at peace with that.


In the mean time we have two cheeky monkeys to keep us busy:














Aren't they the cutest?? Ok yes i'm biased :)

Monday, March 2, 2009

Nope!

We were so sure, but obviously god has other plans for us. We were so excited when AF didnt show herself on saturday, then on sunday she hit with a vengance! Toodles was devistated and was teary all day...to top it all of it was her fathers b'day and we were hosting a bbq lunch. We have sorted things out with our donor and have realised a few things about KS that we really don't like...for one her compulsive lying and trying to put a wedge between us smokie and DD. Things got a little too much yesterday and I broke down at work in front of my collegues and clients...good stuff. They ended up letting me go home and today have been so nice, my boss even offered a shoulder to cry on and the number of our centres councelling service (am I really that bad, well I guess i'm a little obsessive...just a little!). Toodles has caved and wants to use our donor again this month which is also next week on friday the 13th...unlucky or what, and the icing on the cake is that it was supposed to be DD and KS wedding day. After everything that I have found out this weekend about her it makes using her special day so much sweeter (yes i am a biatch)! I'm trying to keep this as a trying to concieve blog and for things about my family so i'm not going to waste my time detailing all the things KS has been doing. Pinky and Bluey are at there fathers this weekend and Toodles is working all weekend so i'm spending some much needed quality time with smokie...looking forward to it:)