Sunday, January 31, 2010
On Friday the 29th January we had our 4th insemination attempt. I must say that this was my most chilled out attempt yet and I do have a positive feeling this time, but then again how many times have I said that? I did get a little nervous when the Drs started talking to me about IVF treatments when we hadn't even found out if it had worked or not but im still hopeful. We are on day 3 of the 2ww and have another 11 to go...have I mentioned that I hate waiting! I have just been so more relaxed this month so am hoping that helps. Fingers crossed!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Well I started my 4th cycle last week on Wednesday and my FSH dosage has changed to 50ml and I am now on Folitropian instead of Gonal F. I have actually been feeling pretty positive about the whole needle thing and am going for my first blood test on Thursday and then a scan later in the day. I have been spending alot of time with Pinky and Bluey latley and have really been enjoying it and just hanging out and Toodles and I have been getting along better. Not much to report on at the moment except that life is going great for me at the moment and I am so thankful for what I do have.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
I picked Pinky and Bluey up at 10am when I was supposed to be running errands for work and took them for ice-cream, now they are hanging out with Toodles mum till I finish. I actually am happy they are back...but I really did enjoy my break though. Poor Pinky has school sores down her leg that are blisstered and they cut all her hair off up to her ears because she got head lice from mixing with their fathers, gfs nices and nephews. They always come back with something...oh and they shaved Blueys head because we gave him a mohwak for the holidays. The poor kids are so skinny you can see their ribs because they have been living off an organic diet with no milk or meat for the past 3 months...Today they have started 'fatty boot camp' and I'm hoping they put on weight before school because they really do look neglected.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Well here I am once again waiting for aunt flo to arrive then waiting for blood tests, then the scans and then finally insemination, after all that I will the be once again waiting for a positive pregnancy result and pretending to keep it together when it's a negative. When is enough, enough? I am terrified just thinking about whats to come over the next month, I hate being touched and the last time I saw the nurses was when my veins collapsed and I broke down in the drs office and they told me I need a break. I am so desperate to have a baby that I just switch of and let them do all the poking and prodding they want...I can't explain the hoplesness I feel, it has been 5 months since we first started and I am not infertile but now I am classed as having infertility problems. It doesn't help when Toodles keeps reminding me how easily she got pregnant like she wasn't even trying. Every second person seems to be pregnant but here I still am, I still remember when my brother told me they were expecting..we had been trying for a yr and here I am still with no baby and there daughter is almost 4 months old! Why me?