We’re back in the game!

We started our Gonal F needles on Saturday so it’s all systems go for this month J I really don’t know what I’m feeling, I guess I’m excited that we are still in with a chance. I don’t want to get our hopes up if it’s not going to work. I’m trying to work on the attitude of ‘if it happens it happens, if not theres always next month’. If our attempts fail this time we are going to do a back to back cycle and go again next month. If we aren’t pregnant by Christmas Toodles wants to wait a few months…it’s really been hard on her too. Toodles has ended up getting a second job doing night fill to pay for all our extra expenses…have I told you all how much I love her! My brother and his gf’s baby is due this week…it’s just another reminder of what we don’t have. It’s just not fair…they are only 18 and didn’t even want a kid yet, I was the first person my brother came to when he was freaking out…to top it all of it was at my 21st b’day party. I guess no matter how hard you try it’s really just luck of the draw. It has been 3 and a half years since we first talked about a family and almost 2years since we started trying, I wonder if it will ever happen for us…at least age/time is on our side so at least I can be thankful for that.