Scan...oh no wait they meant internal!

Today went really well, only one folical that measured 16mm so we are ready to go on Friday! They have given me a trigger injection to do tomorrow instead of my normal FSH...its a whopper, I really don't know how i'm going to go doing it myself :S When we got in the ultrasound room he told me to take off my pant and he would be back in a sec, I was like what! So he came back in and grabbed his MASSIVE wand and stuck a condom on it, yes I was scarred..I squeezed the crap outta Toodles hand. Anyways we had a little bit of trouble because I was so tensed up (it was bloody uncomfortable) so now our Dr has advised the nurses to dose me up with vallium before our insemination attempt...I wonder if i'm the only person who has needed that, I am such a wuss! Fingers crossed x

Scan tomorrow!

Tomorrow we have our first scan to see when we will beready to inseminate. Hopefully there will be one or two good sized embrios in there so that we can start...any more then two this cycle will be a cancelled (fingers crossed). I am more confident in doing my own needles now as toodles has had to work early the past two mornings, I actually think I prefer doing them myself (they seem to hurt less lol). Today I found out the kids after school care teacher (also our friend and her daughter has sleep overs with little Pinky) had to have a medical abortion three weeks ago. She was three months along and she found out at the ultrasound that the bub had no brain or facial features, she had a little boy and received pictures of him yesterday. I feel so sad for her and her daughter who is devistated. I only pray that things go right for toodles and I this time, these hormones are making me really emotional.

Needles and baby making

It seems like it's been so long since i've posted here, I have writted other posts but the net has been stuffing up so I have just saved them and will need to backdate them when I put them on :S We started the IUI process last week with the needles. Toodles wakes me up before work to give me the jab then I go back to sleep lol. It was all working out well until I had to go to Team Building with work and I had to jab myself...not fun :( If all goes to plan I go in for a scan next Wednesday for a scan to determine when we will be inseminating, I'm counting on this been anywhere between Thursday and Saturday :)

In other news the kids have just gotten their report cards back, Bluey is the top of his class while Pinky is still struggling but is showing great improvement :) The school counsilor diagnosed her with memory deficet disorder and a slight interllectual impairment a few weeks ago so now they have created a special learning program for her, hopefully that will help. At the moment the little munchkins are eating apples so they can plant the seeds out of them to grow their own tree...yes they definately are creative!

First call from DOCs

Well I got my first call today (after I sent out my obsessive letters) and was told that Docs at Tweed Heads don't deal with applications anymore because they all go to Sydney's Head Office. We were also told that most people are only taking under 5 year olds with infertile couples and lesbians only wanting children under 12months, the waiting period could be up to 6months! I guess thats a good thing and means parents in our area are taking good care of there kids. I just want a baby so bad :(
Yesterday I found out Donna has probably lost her license...well she got a 6 months suspension cause she was doing 110km in a 60km zone (she didnt read the signs going on the byron highway as all along the highway its 110km until you get to one spot and ist 60km) so now we are prob screwed as she works at ballina and we live in banora point (over 1hr drive) and if I end up having to drive her it will suck as I work at broadbeach/surfers paradise (1hr away from home) so overall my whole morning and night will be spent driving to and from our work places! I know things happen for a reason...I just need to find out that reason!

ahh the kiddies are back!

The kids got back yesterday afternoon from a week long holiday at there fathers, they seemed happy to be back (I think all the presents they had waiting for them at home made them more excited but I would like to think they were just happy to see me lol). I thought about packing their bags and sending them back after their huge yelling/singing trip to nannys in the car this morning (only kidding)

Pinky: " Tell me lies, Tell me lies, whoa whoa, Poker face..."

Bluey (singing over the top of pinky): "Poker mumma...bad mumma, bad mumma"

Pinky:"stop it, its my song.....Kristy, Lukas is not singing right"

Bluey: "mumma mia, here we go again, my my how can I kiss ya, mumma mia here we go again, my my how can I find ya"

Pinky: "oh my god Lukas, oh my god!"

Me: Laughing

Bluey: "I sing good don't I"

On the fostering side of things we still have not heard anything, I did send a letter to Doc's yesterday asking whats going on (do we sound a lil obsessive?) so hopefully we will hear something soon. We also went out and bought a car on Saturday, it's a 7 seater so it will hold alot of kiddies :) Can you tell that we are over confident.

5 Months!

Wow! It only seems like yesterday we were getting married and I was ready to beat her with a stick over the arrangments, I didn't realise it was that long until I added my ticker today!
We still hadn't heard back from the foster care agency so I gave them a call yesterday, yes they said they would get back to me in 2weeks and it had already been 1week and 5 days but I am very impatient about these things...when im in the 2ww i'm already peeing on sticks by day 6! Anyways they apparently are still getting use to their online application process which they only started last week so fingers crossed they call soon :) They also said that they would prefer to only give us children two years younger then our youngest child....so it looks like we would be fostering children under 4. This is starting to get interesting as we could be inseminating as early as next month, I have a Dr's appointment this avo to get a referal and then its off to counselling with Toodles and a Dr's appointment at the fertillity clinic. Toodles and I are so excited, hopefully this is our year!

A new kind of 2WW!

We we finally sent our application of to become a foster family...now we have to wait at least 2 weeks for them to get back to us, ironic really. Donna has gone a lil overboard and now we have a cot and change table in the spare room and kids bunks on back order, can you tell shes excited lol. Her reasoning behind it is even if we dont get accepted we will still need all this stuff down the track...especially if our insemination works in June. So excited everything is just falling into place!